Emotion

Emotions

Sometimes I feel that life would be easier if I was indifferent to everything. Think about it, in times of grief and sadness, wouldn’t you love to have no feelings at all? Wouldn’t you love to simply accept it and move on? Emotion is such a great obstacle in life; it creates road blocks and is the trigger button of an explosion; it destroys you and everything around you. When you do not sleep, you become frustrated, cranky, annoyed and impatient. When you are hungry, you can’t focus on anything but food, your mind drifts off and you become demanding and stubborn. Every action you do triggers some sort of emotion and why do we want to be trapped with our emotions? Why can’t we just live freely and be happy?  

If I were a robotic human, I think I would be much happier. In Camus’s The Stranger, Meursault realizes he was happy with this lifestyle before he killed the Arab. His life was simple and he was satisfied with it. When his mother died, he showed no emotion and did not let it affect him. To me, this could be potentially good because grief and depression destroys people. These negative emotions kill people’s dreams and interfere with their lives. Meursault does not let that happen, he attends his mother’s funeral and moves on in life. Do not get me wrong, I do not agree that people should show no sign of affection or love to their loved ones, simply that perhaps not grieving can be a better option for anyone because he/she does not have to undergo that long process of hurting.

All these negative emotions make you obfuscated. It takes you off the right path because getting emotional affects everyone’s choices, decisions and answers. It misguides you away from your goal and we can’t let that happen! If you are indifferent, nothing stops you from following the rational way. And is being rational such a bad thing? Not at all, being rational is in fact a good thing and allows you to follow the facts. And what beats the facts right? I know in my previous blog, I talked about all that “living the moment” crap, but really, how can we live in the moment when there are so many inevitable happenings occurring in your life that stir up such negative emotions? 

How can we escape from our prison? This happy self in oneself emerges during the good times and this unhappy self emerges during the bad times. Why do we even have another part to ourselves? I can’t think of anyone in this world who would want a bad self to stir up such negative emotions to make one feel depressed and awful. It is these emotions that cause people to cause harm to others, to cause harm to one, to cause harm to the environment. So is being indifferent really a bad thing at all? Yes, we miss out on happiness, love, joy, excitement, but why should we have to endure all the sadness, depression, grief in life? Are those brief moments of happiness really worth a life filled with sadness inside? 

Sometimes I wish I could be indifferent because life would be an easier game to play. If there were hardships in life, we wouldn’t have to endure that hardship because being indifferent would allow us to escape such horrors that would have stirred up inside of us.